Which sounds bad but is true, she’s just, not a very good friend. I know I’m farrrr from perfect; in fact I acted really quite pathetically today. I will admit that, nine days left at school and I’m like 'if she comes Mc Donald’s I’m not going' i didn't know she over heard me, but even so, its pathetic. The thing is, i don’t really enjoy myself when she’s around, when she’s not in one of her black moods ( which she always is, at least to me) she’s having fun at my expense. Then wonders why i do it back to her! Quite frankly I can’t remember who through the first punch, but this war has been going on a long time.
I know its stupid, but i was the only one to put my faith in her when everyone was pissed off, and she through it back in my face at the first opportunity. Not even an 'I’m sorry' or a 'thank you'. Nothing, i guess this war has gone on for so long that our friendship has been pretty much ruined. I'm ok with that.
Again, I know it’s pathetic, but being the bigger person just means I’m letting her get her own way. And I can't do that, because when she gets her own way she becomes even more selfish, loud and obnoxious.
Anyway, why do i always have to be the bigger person? Bad home life doesn't give you an excuse to act like this.
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